I’m going to take a break from the blog for the next few months. I don’t feel in the right place for writing at the moment, and I know the coming months are going to be really hectic, so I thought it would be a good opportunity to take a break and think about what I […]
I love the power of the cold on my face. All my thoughts can’t bring me warmth, all my barriers to the outside fail when confronted with the needs of my body.
I don’t handle the cold well, my frame isn’t designed for extremes. In fact, both my flesh and my mind are always less resilient than I imagine. I […]
I’m growing into the idea that a good death is not so much a death where I have chosen the time and place, but where I have some level of control over the event. I used to believe the best way to die was in the setting of my making, my choosing; not necessarily suicide, […]
Recently I have been feeling a real urgency in my soul, as if now is the time to really get going, the time for change and real unparalleled progress. To a certain extent I always have this feeling around this time of the year as I’m beginning a new university year, a chance to start afresh […]
I wrote a little while ago about how I felt I was maturing in the aesthetic, this growth is coming to a head now, everything around me has taken on a slightly different colour, a slightly different façade. For example, over the summer I have developed a broader range of things which I see as valuable, and […]
I feel a new direction coming. Maybe it’s just because it is the end of a long summer, but I feel as though things are moving around me again. I’m feeling less attached to things I have been pursuing over the past year or so, as though my self is being emptied ready for something […]
Continuing from last week…
What if all our goals are simulacra? Does this present any problem? Or even hold any relevance at all?
I think it’s important, especially for the agnostic, to be aware that everything around herself is in flux, isn’t constant, is (perhaps) simulacra. Things are slightly different for the theist, as they have god, a […]
A fantastic example of simulacra.
Perhaps the most powerful and obvious example of simulacra in our lives is that of “make-up”, in the widest possible sense of the word. To change your body and appearance to look like someone else who in turn is a copy, and a distorted copy at that, of someone else. It’s difficult […]
I'm feeling a real sensitivity to the aesthetic at the moment, a real harmony with my own thoughts and senses. Sometimes I have these periods, often only moments, when my mind really wakes up and comes into focus. It's as if everything around me takes on a subtly different form for an instant, and then […]
Travelling was quite different to what I had expected.
It was fantastic seeing some new and different cultures, looking at how different groups and nations organised things in different ways and comparing them to what I am used to. One particularly interesting comparison was how different countries treated the environment. For example in Germany they have […]
I'm going to be away travelling in Europe for the next few weeks, I'll back in mid June. I'm not sure what the Internet access will be like in the places I am staying, so I might not be able to update the blog while I'm away.
I've not been on a trip like this before, […]
Another thing that hit me during my revision is that some people choose, or are compelled, to spend all or part of their life applying themselves to one specific task. For example, the genius scientist, the obsessive novelist or artist, the eccentric musician, the serial killer, the Olympic gymnast, the tireless politician. What are the […]
As mentioned a few posts ago, I've had exams over the past few weeks, hence the short updates; I've been working more or less all day every day for a month and it's had a significant effect on me, changing my outlook and depositing a load of new ideas.
One of the first things that hit me was […]
I feel as though I am finally coming out of my time of reforming now; over the last few days things seem to be slotting back into place, although this could well be just another stage on the path of transition. I've got back into a lot of the things that have been dormant in […]
Last week I did a fast (eating and drinking nothing but water), only for 24 hours, but I have never done one before so it was a new experience. I decided to do one for various reasons; primarily just for the sake of self discipline but also to try and focus my mind and have […]