I am becoming increasingly disillusioned with materialistic culture. Every time I buy something or use something it seems as though I am on a path to the day it breaks and I need to replace it. I buy a bike, it breaks after a year or two; I buy a computer, the graphic card goes a year or so later. It's not even just manufactured goods, one day I shall get old, and my body will start to break, my mind will start to decay, and I don't even have an opportunity to replace it (although, in a hundred years time, who knows). I find it depressing that so much of what I own is finite, I find myself just waiting for things to break, every time I switch on my computer, I feel I have to prepare myself for it to malfunction and force me to go and buy a new one, repeating the whole process over again.

So much of my life relies on things that are so fragile. For example, just to write this post I am using a computer, which will inevitably break within the next few years. My transport will break sooner or later, my telephone, even the very clothes I am wearing will have to be thrown away and replaced. I guess that is one reason we feel the need to buy so much stuff, that way the "joy" of purchasing masks over the "pain" of our goods breaking, so to speak. We never really notice things breaking because we are too busy getting new things.

This makes me really appreciate things that are infinite; a thought, beauty, an idea. Infinite things bring everlasting satisfaction, rather than the short term fix of buying. That's not to say these things can't "break" through the form of corruption, or being lost from memory, but the original force still lies untouched beneath the surface.

Following on from this, my computer has broken so my Internet access is fairly limited, and as such I'll be updating even less than usual for the next few weeks or so.